Long time no see! Hope you are doing well and have been taking care of yourselves in my absence. I know, I haven’t been as on top of the blogs as I once was. Lots of stuff going on. Expect these blogs from now on to be short and sweet!
So, what’s been on my mind? I was walking my dog this morning and became more introspective than usual, dissecting and devouring some pretty negative thoughts about myself and my current stressors. Without divulging too much info, my plate has been full and things aren’t changing at a pace that I would appreciate. Feels like I’m racing time yet I’m not fast enough or where I’d like to be. My mood has suffered even behind the guise of a smile and I can feel myself taking steps towards a place mentally that I haven’t revisited in quite some time.
So I walked and walked and then heard the birds singing their sweet songs, the brushing of branches as a cool breeze caressed my neck. I realized that I was alive, while some aren’t today, that I could still feel, that I could still walk my dog when others wish they could do the bare necessities when it comes to day-to-day life. Eventually, I started to slowly remember that this life is a gift. And even though some days I wish I could return it to sender, I am dealt the cards I have and must work with what I got and trust that everything will fall into place when it needs to.
The doubts come, the doubts go, people’s assumptions will always be there, but the truth about who you are and what you’ve gone through doesn’t have to be explained or validated by those that don’t know the full story. All in all, to say that you should be proud of yourself for mustering the strength to do things and make progress with what you have and with what you are able to do. Even if it was just waking up this morning and encouraging yourself to leave the bed.
You’ve got to be your biggest cheerleader, because people unfortunately will not always be able to be there. And it sucks! Nobody said the journey to self-care was an easy one. But it is going to be well worth it when no matter what people say or do you will not be as unstable as before as you grow. So, pat yourself on the back before you wreck yourself with your own negative thoughts–which serve no purpose but to push you down and KEEP you down.
Surround yourself with people who support you the same way you would support them. Cut off toxic connections with people, places or things. Easier said than done, obviously, but it must be done if we are to grow to be better people.
I hope all of this makes sense, as I’m writing this on a whim with my scattered brain.
That’s all for now, Maniacs! Take care of you! Be proud of how far you’ve come and rest in knowing that what you thought was gonna hold you back in the past, didn’t stop you from making it to the present.
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